Today wasn't half bad. School was terrible, more so than usual. My English teacher is getting on my nerves and I kind of want to slap her with a fish. But after school was magnificent. Jackie and Gunnar are at band Regionals, along with Sarah and Austin. And while Trevor was at a meeting Hippo and I managed to find Alexa and have an absolutely splendid time. This girl who I was friends with in the fifth grade, who moved, (She wasn't a particularly good friend) got a hold of my cell number and when she called I gave my cell to Alexa and she pretended to be my Parisian secretary. Their conversation lasted at least five minutes and was very hilarious. Thus the quote.
And yet the day got better. Hippo and I sat (accidentally) where the track was running suicide laps. Marco happens to be on track. He also happened to run shirtless, along with some other particularly attractive males, who I don't actually know. But they were cuties.
Then we rode the bus and talked about Pokemon with the two other boys on the bus. Same old, same old there.
All in all, better than expected.
Today I saw: Running, shirtless, cute boys. Doesn't get any better.
Today I heard: A birdie hitting a racket. I'm not very good, but I really enjoy badminton.
Today I smelled: Vinillary perfume by LUSH. Lush, indeed.
Today I touched: A not too much. Mostly just me flailing during several conversations between Alexa, Hippo and I.
Today I tasted: Again, not a lot. Boring, I know. But what can I say?
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sunday, February 27, 2011
"I love you more than all the rain drops, more than all the sea shells, more than all the crummy rock jokes, more than all of the stupid teachers, more than all of the universes and time lines you, as the Doctor, have been a part of, more than all of the pointless homework, more than all of the stupid, high school boys, more than all of Austins funny faces. I love, adore, idolize, dote upon, am enthralled, am dazzled, am stupefied by you" February 27, 2011
Today wasn't a total fail. I thought it would be, but Hippo made it so much better. I hope she doesn't mind m using her quote. anyway, here's why I thought today would be bad: (From a Sykpe with Hippo)
I hate everything. I hate me. I hate that I have to live with my lies everyday. I hate that I'm so whiny and that I just constantly throw stones in my own glass house. I hate that I don't live up to what I should and I hate thinking that because no body can change it but me. I hate that all I think about is Gunnar and I hate how yours, mine and Sarah's friendship is like we're an awkward love triangle that never talks with the terrible lack of communication. I hate that you go along with Jackie being a bitch behind my back because I'd stick up for you even if you were wrong. I hate how shitty Mr. Gass makes me feel every class and how even if I were to tell him, he wouldn't care. I hate that I'm even honest with myself anymore and I hate that Devin called me a dyke and I didn't even stand up for myself because I didn't care anymore. I hate that I hardly see my dad and I hate that this heart attack even had to happen. I hate how much burden I caused for everyone around me and I hate how betrayed I made Gunnar feel. And I hate that there's so much I want to say but I don't know how and I hate that I'm so angry sometimes that I just cry in the middle of classes and make people think that I'm crazy. I hate that I ever considered cutting again because of all of this even if it would hurt so many people and I hate that this is a goddamned run on sentence. I hate that expectations of me are so high that sometimes I can't handle them but I force myself to anyway. I hate how mean I can be to people who don't deserve it. I hate that nerdfighteria can't be what it used to be for me and that the nerd fighters have just started to feel phony. I hate that I feel Holden Caufelid all the time in the worst ways possible but I don't know what to do anymore and I'm too little to accept help on anything.
And lastly, I hat that there's so much more I could have put on this list.
Today I saw: So much Pokemon. I clocked in 6 hours between yesterday and today.
Today I heard: Hippo's voice, via phone this time.
Today I:
EDIT: March 05, 2011
Apparently I spaced and didn't finish my senses...
Oops.
I hate everything. I hate me. I hate that I have to live with my lies everyday. I hate that I'm so whiny and that I just constantly throw stones in my own glass house. I hate that I don't live up to what I should and I hate thinking that because no body can change it but me. I hate that all I think about is Gunnar and I hate how yours, mine and Sarah's friendship is like we're an awkward love triangle that never talks with the terrible lack of communication. I hate that you go along with Jackie being a bitch behind my back because I'd stick up for you even if you were wrong. I hate how shitty Mr. Gass makes me feel every class and how even if I were to tell him, he wouldn't care. I hate that I'm even honest with myself anymore and I hate that Devin called me a dyke and I didn't even stand up for myself because I didn't care anymore. I hate that I hardly see my dad and I hate that this heart attack even had to happen. I hate how much burden I caused for everyone around me and I hate how betrayed I made Gunnar feel. And I hate that there's so much I want to say but I don't know how and I hate that I'm so angry sometimes that I just cry in the middle of classes and make people think that I'm crazy. I hate that I ever considered cutting again because of all of this even if it would hurt so many people and I hate that this is a goddamned run on sentence. I hate that expectations of me are so high that sometimes I can't handle them but I force myself to anyway. I hate how mean I can be to people who don't deserve it. I hate that nerdfighteria can't be what it used to be for me and that the nerd fighters have just started to feel phony. I hate that I feel Holden Caufelid all the time in the worst ways possible but I don't know what to do anymore and I'm too little to accept help on anything.
And lastly, I hat that there's so much more I could have put on this list.
Today I saw: So much Pokemon. I clocked in 6 hours between yesterday and today.
Today I heard: Hippo's voice, via phone this time.
Today I:
EDIT: March 05, 2011
Apparently I spaced and didn't finish my senses...
Oops.
"Teehee" February 26, 2011
Want to know what I did today? Well too damn bad because I did basically nothing. I went to be at like nine thirty last night, but I still woke up just before noon. I watched some videos and TV, talked to Hippo, played Pokemon and Tumbled. My life is oh-so fascinating. Admittedly, blogging shouldn't definitely not be limited to my life. The weirdest thing that happened today (or rather last night) was my dream. So, I was in a definitely LUSH cosmetics store, that was in my English room. It had all LUSH products, but it was definitely my English room. I remember smells of things, and shopping and everything. Just me and Hippo shopping at LUSH. It very well might have been the most vivid dream I've ever had. The sales woman was kind of a bitch, though. She wouldn't cut a chunk of soap for me and when some bath bombs fell she got all angry at me. Oh, self conscious. You are very weird. Very weird, indeed.chunk
As far as everything else went, I didn't feel much better. The only conversation I actually had was about how much fun Austin and Hippo had without me. Because that made me feel so much better after sitting alone all day.
Today I saw: A lot of the LUSH website. I was so tempted to use the remainder of my uke money after than dream.
Today I heard: Pokemon music, a lot. Playing Emerald!
Today I smelled: BBQ for dinner. That I couldn't eat. Awesome.
Today I touched: My keys, as I realised it's 12:07 am and I haven't finished this. To be fair, I started a quarter before the hour.
Today I tasted: Pretty much nothing. Oops
As far as everything else went, I didn't feel much better. The only conversation I actually had was about how much fun Austin and Hippo had without me. Because that made me feel so much better after sitting alone all day.
Today I saw: A lot of the LUSH website. I was so tempted to use the remainder of my uke money after than dream.
Today I heard: Pokemon music, a lot. Playing Emerald!
Today I smelled: BBQ for dinner. That I couldn't eat. Awesome.
Today I touched: My keys, as I realised it's 12:07 am and I haven't finished this. To be fair, I started a quarter before the hour.
Today I tasted: Pretty much nothing. Oops
Friday, February 25, 2011
"ASS TITS" Febuary 25, 2011
So I almost fell off a cliff today. Three times. I know, I know. Cool story, bro. Tell it again. And I know that my blog has a certain level of... hyperbole to it. But I am dead serious. Slipped on the ice, and had to be pulled up from a cliff leading to rocks, a fence, dead trees and God knows what else. Me and Cole (And three other kids) took a back route downtown from school and pretty much almost got killed or seriously injured.
School was not good, either. I got written up and Tech, and became so fed up with our teacher's sub (The teacher had a kid) that I transferred out of the class. This guy was literally Pretentious McAss Douche. And he got all up close to the students. Major creeper. The guy tells to write a PowerPoint and doesn't give us a freaking topic, or a list of topics.
And now I'm sad because I could have avoided near death all together, gone to the high school, hung out with Sarah and then worked Choir concessions with all my favorite people. Just not a good day.
Today I saw: Maxx, at least. Playing Magic: The Gathering, a card game far beyond my comprehension.
Today I heard: Yells of cuss words as we slipped through the god damned woods.
Today I smelled: Nothing of note, unfortunately. Or maybe not.
Today I touched: Fallout by Ellen Hopkins, because I went to the bookstore after the woods. That's where I saw Maxx, actually. Didn't have the money on me to buy it.
Today I tasted: Grapes. I like grapes. Those were good.
School was not good, either. I got written up and Tech, and became so fed up with our teacher's sub (The teacher had a kid) that I transferred out of the class. This guy was literally Pretentious McAss Douche. And he got all up close to the students. Major creeper. The guy tells to write a PowerPoint and doesn't give us a freaking topic, or a list of topics.
And now I'm sad because I could have avoided near death all together, gone to the high school, hung out with Sarah and then worked Choir concessions with all my favorite people. Just not a good day.
Today I saw: Maxx, at least. Playing Magic: The Gathering, a card game far beyond my comprehension.
Today I heard: Yells of cuss words as we slipped through the god damned woods.
Today I smelled: Nothing of note, unfortunately. Or maybe not.
Today I touched: Fallout by Ellen Hopkins, because I went to the bookstore after the woods. That's where I saw Maxx, actually. Didn't have the money on me to buy it.
Today I tasted: Grapes. I like grapes. Those were good.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
"Your team's going DOWN." Febuary 24, 2011
Today was rather sucky and kind of boring. A comment was made on my anxiety, which only made it worse. And all I saw in people today were their downsides, which is unlike me. All I could see in English is how often my normally lovely teacher rolls her eyes. I can't stand when people do that. To me, it shows a great lack of maturity. People still struck me with all their faults. And as much as I hate that today was that way, I can't help it. Sarah made it a little bit better. Anyway, the high school has half day tomorrow, so I don't know what I'll do.
Today I saw: Powell, Drake, Maxx and Hippo. But only briefly.
Today I heard: Hippo's voice on Skype. That made things a little bit better, at least.
Today I smelled: GIRL SCOUR COOKIES
Today I touched: Hippo's Game Boy. Attempting to get through Emerald.
Today I tasted: Aforementioned Girl Scout Cookies.
Today I saw: Powell, Drake, Maxx and Hippo. But only briefly.
Today I heard: Hippo's voice on Skype. That made things a little bit better, at least.
Today I smelled: GIRL SCOUR COOKIES
Today I touched: Hippo's Game Boy. Attempting to get through Emerald.
Today I tasted: Aforementioned Girl Scout Cookies.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
"I just made an entrance!" February 23, 2011
Honestly, today was boring. I sat around until Sarah found me, and then we hung out until I went home. Then I took a nap, which was probably the best part of my day. I mean, it was better than when Sarah electric slide into Powell's room while he was talking to Dorsey and Sonya. It was pretty funny, but we still felt bad.
Today was also the day I realised I'm a terrible person. We passed where Jackie works, and she was holding a sign outside, but her dress was all caught in the snow. This was very funny for me. I don't know if I should feel bad or not.
Today I saw: That my love for Pokemon is actually shared by students in my grade. Huzzah!
Today I heard: Sarah. That's really it. Sarah.
Today I smelled: Fast food, which I ate a little bit of. Oh well.
Today I touched: My sheets and blankets, when I should be doing homework.
Today I tasted: Sweet victory! I remembered the order of my senses again!
Today was also the day I realised I'm a terrible person. We passed where Jackie works, and she was holding a sign outside, but her dress was all caught in the snow. This was very funny for me. I don't know if I should feel bad or not.
Today I saw: That my love for Pokemon is actually shared by students in my grade. Huzzah!
Today I heard: Sarah. That's really it. Sarah.
Today I smelled: Fast food, which I ate a little bit of. Oh well.
Today I touched: My sheets and blankets, when I should be doing homework.
Today I tasted: Sweet victory! I remembered the order of my senses again!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
"Just the girl I was looking for!" February 22, 2011
Today was actually rather nice. Spent the afternoon in Powell's room with Hippo and Sarah, saw Austin briefly and rode the bus home. And I managed to get help on my homework. The work was unfathomably easy but my little brain is a worry wart and I always got nervous that I was doing the wrong thing. This happens in class too, especially with Algebra. Even if I know what to do, I worry that it will be so off that my teachers will find me to be mentally incapable and hold me back forever. Because that's what teachers do to students who are perfectly smart and capable now a days. I blame MTV.
Today I saw: Austin, for the first time in a while. I'm actually wearing his GLORIOUS hat.
Today I heard: Rants. Lots of rants. From me, of course.
Today I smelled: The fresh scent of no dinner because Papaya worked late. Yum!
Today I touched: My keys as I actually remembered the order these senses go in. For the first time in a month and twenty-two days I didn't have to back track to remember how to blog. All right.
Today I tasted: The sweet victory of finishinggoogling the answers my Algebra.
Today I saw: Austin, for the first time in a while. I'm actually wearing his GLORIOUS hat.
Today I heard: Rants. Lots of rants. From me, of course.
Today I smelled: The fresh scent of no dinner because Papaya worked late. Yum!
Today I touched: My keys as I actually remembered the order these senses go in. For the first time in a month and twenty-two days I didn't have to back track to remember how to blog. All right.
Today I tasted: The sweet victory of finishing
Monday, February 21, 2011
"(948u532)=4920u57+(45x)-84748y-jfnurg isn't normal. But on math it is. Math: not even once" February 21, 2011
So, today was actually pretty good. Hippo strolled off with Gunnar and Jackie for the first part of the afternoon so I spent some time with Sarah, seeing Brendalyn once. AC/DC got fourth or fifth place at state, with Brendalyn getting a gold metal and Maxx getting a silver. Our main opponent didn't win either, so were okay. After a little while I ran into Leslie, and we chatted and looked at pictures. It was nice, Leslie is adorable. After Hippo left Gunnar and Jackie, we took the bus home and had quite the trip, running into the at least foot deep snow piles. Then we got home and Skyped, while she attempted to help me with math, yet I still need more help.
Today I saw: All of the Decathletes walk around the commons confused as to what to do when not at AC/DC.
Today I heard: Leslie's laugh. A much missed one.
Today I smelled: Nothing of note. I suppose I smelt Sarah, which is fairly normal now.
Today I touched: Brendalyn's hand, since she was sitting and couldn't hug me.
Today I tasted: Jello with fruit in it. Better than expected, I must say.
Today I saw: All of the Decathletes walk around the commons confused as to what to do when not at AC/DC.
Today I heard: Leslie's laugh. A much missed one.
Today I smelled: Nothing of note. I suppose I smelt Sarah, which is fairly normal now.
Today I touched: Brendalyn's hand, since she was sitting and couldn't hug me.
Today I tasted: Jello with fruit in it. Better than expected, I must say.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
"You're getting beat by Peach. How does that make you feel?" February 20, 2011
I was at Hippo's till about 5 today, and then completely spaced blogging in the mist of figuring out LPs, and working on Spanish. So now I'm setting down here, while my Papaya looks sorely confused as I blog five minutes before I should be sleeping. Sorry this is short, despite the fact that I have plenty to talk about.
Today I saw: Ice and snow and sun all at the same time. What the hell, weather?
Today I heard: 'Balls.' A lot. Hippo and I played Mario Party 7. Want to ruin a friendship?lie about your age play Mario Party.
Today I smelled: Baked mac n cheese. Different from yesterdays, but still good.
Today I touched: A pen and poster board for a stupid Spanish project that's due Tuesday. Done in one day.
Today I tasted: A Diet Coke. HATE ME.
Today I saw: Ice and snow and sun all at the same time. What the hell, weather?
Today I heard: 'Balls.' A lot. Hippo and I played Mario Party 7. Want to ruin a friendship?
Today I smelled: Baked mac n cheese. Different from yesterdays, but still good.
Today I touched: A pen and poster board for a stupid Spanish project that's due Tuesday. Done in one day.
Today I tasted: A Diet Coke. HATE ME.
"Dat forehead" February 19, 2011
So, the first part of my day was boring, I can't lie. But then Hippo invited me over and now I'm at her place, blogging from her bed. We've mostly played video games, talked, watched Let's Plays and laughed at hilarious pictures of Powell. And then we fawned over a picture of some of particularly attractive males we just happen to attend school with. Gunnar Maxx Balazs And now Hippo is sleepy so I really should go.
Today I saw: Powell's HILARIOUS Face Book pictures. They are great. I appreciator them.
Today I heard: Maniacal laughter from Hippo and me at Powell's expense. Not for the first time, and probably not for the last. Admittedly, he did choose to put them on the Internet.
Today I smelled: Mac N Cheese as I tried, emphasis on the tired, to eat with chopsticks. Not a good plan.
Today I touched: Hippo's god damned keyboard. It's stupid and out of line. Not cool, man, not cool.
Today I tasted: Very little of the said mac n cheese. At least on the first try.
Today I saw: Powell's HILARIOUS Face Book pictures. They are great. I appreciator them.
Today I heard: Maniacal laughter from Hippo and me at Powell's expense. Not for the first time, and probably not for the last. Admittedly, he did choose to put them on the Internet.
Today I smelled: Mac N Cheese as I tried, emphasis on the tired, to eat with chopsticks. Not a good plan.
Today I touched: Hippo's god damned keyboard. It's stupid and out of line. Not cool, man, not cool.
Today I tasted: Very little of the said mac n cheese. At least on the first try.
Friday, February 18, 2011
"I'm like a Socially Awkward Penguin and Paranoid Parrot burrito." "Yum" February 18, 2011
Yeah, today wasn't great. But I'm not going to talk about it. I'm not in the mood and I'm on my mom's laptop because my laptop is stupid and apparently wants to be thrown against a wall.
But I realised something. I need to leave. Just, go. I don't want to drop my friends or anything, just go on a little detour. I need room to do things, to make mistakes. I want to leave for two weeks and come back with stories. A whole new person. I know I've said I found myself in my friends, but sometimes I need a break. I'm tired of being told to wait, and I'm tired of feeling restricted. And like I can be utterly myself sometimes and none of myself the rest. There are things I need right now that I can't get here.
I'm frustrated and tired. Just because I'm the youngest doesn't mean I should have to put up with hell while I watch others feel happy. And I don't deserve to be treated with a lack of respect because of my age, especially.
Today I saw: My laptop die in front of my eyes, while Skyping with Hippo.
Today I heard: Me, hyperventilating in Algebra. Mostly over a teacher thing, but I'm sure there's more to it.
Today I smelled: Grilled sandwiches for dinner, again.
Today I touched: My mum's car, while waiting for he to get out of work.
Today I tasted: This juice, that is orange-berry. Iffy, iffy.
But I realised something. I need to leave. Just, go. I don't want to drop my friends or anything, just go on a little detour. I need room to do things, to make mistakes. I want to leave for two weeks and come back with stories. A whole new person. I know I've said I found myself in my friends, but sometimes I need a break. I'm tired of being told to wait, and I'm tired of feeling restricted. And like I can be utterly myself sometimes and none of myself the rest. There are things I need right now that I can't get here.
I'm frustrated and tired. Just because I'm the youngest doesn't mean I should have to put up with hell while I watch others feel happy. And I don't deserve to be treated with a lack of respect because of my age, especially.
Today I saw: My laptop die in front of my eyes, while Skyping with Hippo.
Today I heard: Me, hyperventilating in Algebra. Mostly over a teacher thing, but I'm sure there's more to it.
Today I smelled: Grilled sandwiches for dinner, again.
Today I touched: My mum's car, while waiting for he to get out of work.
Today I tasted: This juice, that is orange-berry. Iffy, iffy.
"BALLS" February 17, 2011- Late
Yeah, I forgot to blog yesterday. But I will tell you what I did yesterday. I walked to the bookstore (Not Parnassus), bought two books, came home, talked to Hippo for three hours, wrote a little, said balls a lot and went to bed
Today I saw: Yeah
Today I heard: It's a little
Today I smelled: late for this
Today I touched: Sorry
Today I tasted: Yeah
Today I saw: Yeah
Today I heard: It's a little
Today I smelled: late for this
Today I touched: Sorry
Today I tasted: Yeah
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
"Aw, look at Leslie! KABOOM!"
"I told that girl to mind her leptons, but she did not keep her sub-sub-sub atomic particles in check. I'll have to give her a stern talking to about what really matters."
Today, today, today...
Aside from world war three arising in History, it was okay. The sub-quote is Hippo trying to figure out what Powell would say if my history teacher were to call him and get me in trouble from Powell, too. Nothing would happen, I'm sure. So, I saw Johnny, Shawna and Jillian today, which was okay when you don't think about the fact that Jillian is not a fan of me. And then I spent a little time with Ashley, and then came home and Skyped with Hippo. (We've been on 3:30 hours.) We actually worked on some character stuff and found a HILARIOUS picture of Powell when he very clearly did not want his picture taken. I need to post this before the vain in Hippo's head pops.
Today I saw: Snow flurries SNOW FLURRIES EVERYWHERE
Today I heard: Laughter. Lots and lots of laughter. A lot of it at Powell's expense.
Today I smelled: Today I smelled SCIENCE in the science hall.
Today I touched: Hippo's game boy, while playing Pokemon Emerald.
Today I tasted: Chips. I like that crap.
Today, today, today...
Aside from world war three arising in History, it was okay. The sub-quote is Hippo trying to figure out what Powell would say if my history teacher were to call him and get me in trouble from Powell, too. Nothing would happen, I'm sure. So, I saw Johnny, Shawna and Jillian today, which was okay when you don't think about the fact that Jillian is not a fan of me. And then I spent a little time with Ashley, and then came home and Skyped with Hippo. (We've been on 3:30 hours.) We actually worked on some character stuff and found a HILARIOUS picture of Powell when he very clearly did not want his picture taken. I need to post this before the vain in Hippo's head pops.
Today I saw: Snow flurries SNOW FLURRIES EVERYWHERE
Today I heard: Laughter. Lots and lots of laughter. A lot of it at Powell's expense.
Today I smelled: Today I smelled SCIENCE in the science hall.
Today I touched: Hippo's game boy, while playing Pokemon Emerald.
Today I tasted: Chips. I like that crap.
"Mind your leptons." February 15, 2011- Mom's Birthday
"I must be algae
and You must be fungus
Because I have taken a "lichen" to you"
So, today was actually good. After school though, I ha to have a text message duel with Maxx because he wouldn't give Hippo her Valentine despite the fact that he didn't even know it was one. Then me, Leslie, Trevor, Hippo, Anthony, Sarah, Ashley and I hung out. Leslie left after a little, but not before calling me 'Leslie adorable.' I about imploded.
Before she left, I walked her down to the commons, and ran into Powell, which was good. We talked about antimatter and things like that, which is where the quote came from. Today was parent-teacher conferences so after they others left, Hippo and I sat on the bench behind his table and talked with him when he wasn't talking to parents. And he introduced me to the Advanced English teacher. I'm sure she's lovely, but as of know, she scares me. Actually, when I told Powell this he said "Good." So I must be on the right track. All in all, good day. The AC/DC state team leaves for the State meet tomorrow. Good luck, guys!
and You must be fungus
Because I have taken a "lichen" to you"
So, today was actually good. After school though, I ha to have a text message duel with Maxx because he wouldn't give Hippo her Valentine despite the fact that he didn't even know it was one. Then me, Leslie, Trevor, Hippo, Anthony, Sarah, Ashley and I hung out. Leslie left after a little, but not before calling me 'Leslie adorable.' I about imploded.
Before she left, I walked her down to the commons, and ran into Powell, which was good. We talked about antimatter and things like that, which is where the quote came from. Today was parent-teacher conferences so after they others left, Hippo and I sat on the bench behind his table and talked with him when he wasn't talking to parents. And he introduced me to the Advanced English teacher. I'm sure she's lovely, but as of know, she scares me. Actually, when I told Powell this he said "Good." So I must be on the right track. All in all, good day. The AC/DC state team leaves for the State meet tomorrow. Good luck, guys!
Monday, February 14, 2011
"You're Leslie adorable." February 14, 2011- Valentines Day
So, I am going to explain the quote first. Hippo and I were discussing the compliments we like to receive, and I said "Leslie adorable." Because, Leslie is the most adorable creature on the Earth and it's incredibly flattering, or it is if you know her.
Okay. Back up, Hippo and I had this agreement that we would get boys to deliver our Valentines. Hippo, being perfect, knew to ask Marco to deliver mine. And he did, and it was the most adorable/nerdy/ hilariously awkward thing ever. He handed it to be, and did a thumbs up, and walked away. This was after being told to 'cute.' Yeah, Hippo had to ask Brendalyn to ask Marco, and it was apparently very funny. And after I had had the previous conversation, Hippo went up to Marco and made him say to me "You're Leslie adorable."
Because my friends are better than yours.
Oh, and we kind of trolled Marco. He left for a little, so we took his bag, and moved it. Then he went to where it was, walked around and looked for it, and while he did that, we put it back. Trolololololol.
So, yeah. Good day. Expect I couldn't get Hippo her Valentine, so I have to do it tomorrow, if can track down Maxx. WHICH I WILL.
Okay. Back up, Hippo and I had this agreement that we would get boys to deliver our Valentines. Hippo, being perfect, knew to ask Marco to deliver mine. And he did, and it was the most adorable/nerdy/ hilariously awkward thing ever. He handed it to be, and did a thumbs up, and walked away. This was after being told to 'cute.' Yeah, Hippo had to ask Brendalyn to ask Marco, and it was apparently very funny. And after I had had the previous conversation, Hippo went up to Marco and made him say to me "You're Leslie adorable."
Because my friends are better than yours.
Oh, and we kind of trolled Marco. He left for a little, so we took his bag, and moved it. Then he went to where it was, walked around and looked for it, and while he did that, we put it back. Trolololololol.
So, yeah. Good day. Expect I couldn't get Hippo her Valentine, so I have to do it tomorrow, if can track down Maxx. WHICH I WILL.
"12:06 AM" February 13, 2011
LORDY. Okay, it's after midnight and I'm just posting my blog. All I've done is watch ChuggaConroy videos. So blame Hippo for introducing me. Cause you know, it's her fault. Happy Valentines Day!
Today I saw: My laptop screen
Today I heard: Emile (ChuggaConroy's) voice, a lot. Go ahead, judge.
Today I smelled: My self... Yeah, that.
Today I touched: My hair, mostly. I've been playing with it.
Today I tasted: Pretty much nothing.
Side note: This is the first time I haven't had to check a previous post to know what order the senses are in. A month and a half into the project. Not bad.
Today I saw: My laptop screen
Today I heard: Emile (ChuggaConroy's) voice, a lot. Go ahead, judge.
Today I smelled: My self... Yeah, that.
Today I touched: My hair, mostly. I've been playing with it.
Today I tasted: Pretty much nothing.
Side note: This is the first time I haven't had to check a previous post to know what order the senses are in. A month and a half into the project. Not bad.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
"You can't trust prostates." February 12, 2011
There were quite a few runner ups for today:
Today I saw: Pokemon Yellow, which Hippo is letting me borrow.
Today I heard: Some hilarious, new Let's Play videos.
Today I smelled: Popcorn, hot dogs, pretzels, nacho cheese, and Rosemary. (The person)
Today I touched: Candy, Alexa and I worked the candy station. And rapped. She's my DJ.
Today I tasted: Three mother damn soft pretzels with cheese. And candy. And that's about it.
- "I love you, little one."
- "I like you."
- "Johnjohnjohnjohnjohnjohnjohn"
- "Go be saxy, Leslie."
- "Let us praise the popcorn gods, in order to have out crops be bountiful"
"POP POP POP POP CUYMBA YA YA POP YA"
Today I saw: Pokemon Yellow, which Hippo is letting me borrow.
Today I heard: Some hilarious, new Let's Play videos.
Today I smelled: Popcorn, hot dogs, pretzels, nacho cheese, and Rosemary. (The person)
Today I touched: Candy, Alexa and I worked the candy station. And rapped. She's my DJ.
Today I tasted: Three mother damn soft pretzels with cheese. And candy. And that's about it.
Friday, February 11, 2011
"Balls, balls, balls, balls, BALLS" February 11, 2011
So, I'm at Hippo's, watching her play the most frustrating game in the world. Hence where the quote came from. Though, it probably should have put 'Come at me, bro.' It was said many times today. Anyway, I saw Powell, Hippo, (Clearly) Trevor, Balazs and Brittany. (Not Tits) It was actually nice, Balazs is total sweetheart and it was nice seeing everyone else. I did awkwardly run into Jackie, and all I could do it stare at the floor. (By the way, Balazs is said Bal-ah-sh) I mean, things weren't good, but today was pretty good, as far as after school. Seeing Powell was excellent and pretty much the best part of my day. And now I'm noming with Hippo and livin' it up.
Today I saw: Powell, and his classroom. Plus, I got to see him lock the TARDIS.
Today I heard: A Hungarian trying to speak in a British accent. Good times.
Today I smelled: Fish crackers, from this Japanese store near where Hippo's dad lives.
Today I touched: Hippo, a lot.
Today I tasted: Mellow-Yellow, my first soda in a damn long time.
Today I saw: Powell, and his classroom. Plus, I got to see him lock the TARDIS.
Today I heard: A Hungarian trying to speak in a British accent. Good times.
Today I smelled: Fish crackers, from this Japanese store near where Hippo's dad lives.
Today I touched: Hippo, a lot.
Today I tasted: Mellow-Yellow, my first soda in a damn long time.
"You're back!" February 10, 2011
Yeah, not a great day. But I saw Austin and that was great. I've missed him so much. While I normally play Switzerland for me, Hippo, Sarah and Ash, he's my Switzerland. I pretty much need him to stay sane these days. And that was pretty much the only good thing. I now that sounds bad, but ask Hippo and Trevor's shirts, which are stained with my tears. I'm looking forward to a weekend alone, relaxing. Admittedly, It'd b better gaming with Austin and Hippo, but that's probably not going to happen.
Today I saw: Austin, clearly. And his new swag, a hat and shoes.
Today I heard: Trevor and Austin play piano. Much missed.
Today I smelled: Nothing noteworthy. Well, actually I smelled Austin. But he's been everyone so far.
Today I touched: Austin. Oh my God. Austin, Austin, Austin. Not that I don't love him, but golly.
Today I tasted: A chip, at lunch. Sour cream and onion. Good stuff
Today I saw: Austin, clearly. And his new swag, a hat and shoes.
Today I heard: Trevor and Austin play piano. Much missed.
Today I smelled: Nothing noteworthy. Well, actually I smelled Austin. But he's been everyone so far.
Today I touched: Austin. Oh my God. Austin, Austin, Austin. Not that I don't love him, but golly.
Today I tasted: A chip, at lunch. Sour cream and onion. Good stuff
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
"You're actually really pretty." Febuary 9, 2011
Hey. Look. Compliment. Anyway, today didn't suck that bad. Some parts did, I can not tell a lie. Missed Gunnar, missed Austin, missed Leslie, missed Rosemary. Plus, we tested today, which I actually like. I like the whole testing process. I hate the tests, but the process and the way the day works out is good for me. I like it, dispute my growing anxiety.
I talked to Trevor basically all afternoon. After school in real life, then texted until 8:30. Then spoke to Hippo, saw Gunnar but didn't speak, had to see Jackie twice more than either of us would have liked. Nothing unusual. All I can hope is that tomorrow's tests go well and that I can pry Austin away from Jackie and Gunnar long enough to talk to him. Like that's going to happen.
Today I saw: Some 99 dollar ukuleles that I wanted to have very badly. But, I'm spending my uke fund on Ashley's birthday.
Today I heard: Trevor's relaxed voice. Better than his excited (and admittedly high pitched) voice.
Today I smelled: My soaps, I guess. Nothing new or interesting here, like usual. I still can't bring myself to remove it.
Today I touched: Sarah, a lot. And Trevor, a lot.
Today I tasted: A lot of crackers. Mr. Gass gave me his from his lunch because I was complaining about hunger during the Terra Nova tests.
I talked to Trevor basically all afternoon. After school in real life, then texted until 8:30. Then spoke to Hippo, saw Gunnar but didn't speak, had to see Jackie twice more than either of us would have liked. Nothing unusual. All I can hope is that tomorrow's tests go well and that I can pry Austin away from Jackie and Gunnar long enough to talk to him. Like that's going to happen.
Today I saw: Some 99 dollar ukuleles that I wanted to have very badly. But, I'm spending my uke fund on Ashley's birthday.
Today I heard: Trevor's relaxed voice. Better than his excited (and admittedly high pitched) voice.
Today I smelled: My soaps, I guess. Nothing new or interesting here, like usual. I still can't bring myself to remove it.
Today I touched: Sarah, a lot. And Trevor, a lot.
Today I tasted: A lot of crackers. Mr. Gass gave me his from his lunch because I was complaining about hunger during the Terra Nova tests.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Liz forgot a quote oops. February 8, 2011
People say that that people are brought into our lives for a reason. Bringing something we must learn and we are lead to those of help us most to grow if we let them and we help them in return. Yes, I did that on memory, no I am not here to quote Wicked.But the resent dropping out of people in life has left me to think a lot about this. Is it true? I mean, even the person who acted like my friend and now talks behind my back snidely had taught me things. Admittedly, they weren’t things I didn’t know before. The things I learned were more things about her and about people than things that I will let change me drastically. Sometimes I felt like this person spent time with me because she had to, not because she wanted to. I mean she had to in order to see our other mutual friends. But even if she didn’t, was she worth it? I don’t know where I’m going with this, but it’s just been on my mind. I mean, the other person in this situation taught me plenty of things, and I honestly think was worth the pain I had after loosing him. But I feel like this girl caused a momentary lapse in my life, and I’m struggling to find a way to come out of it feeling like I’ve gained anything. And I hate that. If something is this upsetting I should at least get something out of it other than pain.
And yeah, that's what I thought about today. I basically spent today alone because Hippo was with Gunnar and Caroline. (Austin and Leslie are out at Jazz Fest, still) So I didn't see her until before I left and now we're on Skype. And that's that.
Today I saw: Several assorted locations in the high school. Usually landing, places I haven't been to in ages.
Today I heard: A lot of voices, but I didn't see many faces.
Today I smelled: My mom's car. More than once, like usual.
Today I touched: My math book, more than usual. Good or bad, you choose.
Today I tasted: FOOOOD. I according to Hippo. Which is true, I had a really good apple.
And yeah, that's what I thought about today. I basically spent today alone because Hippo was with Gunnar and Caroline. (Austin and Leslie are out at Jazz Fest, still) So I didn't see her until before I left and now we're on Skype. And that's that.
Today I saw: Several assorted locations in the high school. Usually landing, places I haven't been to in ages.
Today I heard: A lot of voices, but I didn't see many faces.
Today I smelled: My mom's car. More than once, like usual.
Today I touched: My math book, more than usual. Good or bad, you choose.
Today I tasted: FOOOOD. I according to Hippo. Which is true, I had a really good apple.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
"Off with your head!" Febuary 6, 2011
I have a headache and I don't feel good. Deal with it
Today I saw: Not a lot
Today I heard: Glee!
Today I smelled: New soap
Today I touched: My laptop
Today I tasted: Corn on the cob
Today I saw: Not a lot
Today I heard: Glee!
Today I smelled: New soap
Today I touched: My laptop
Today I tasted: Corn on the cob
Saturday, February 5, 2011
"Liz has a 'z' on the end of it for a reason. Swallow your spit and go to bed silly goose!" Febuary 5, 2011
Today was... productive. I watched a bunch of Karen Kavett videos while cleaning, I sent out my Animal Crossing mail, I hung up another sticky note from my 'wall of inspiration.' That's just were I put nice things on sticky notes and stick them for the back of my desk.
Things are only as scary as you make them.
Don’t focus on hits, blog for yourself.
A crappy execution of an idea is better than an amazing concept trapped in your head forever
Stephanie Meyer wrote books- so can you.
When you’re loosing everything, remember what you’ve been given.
The last one is the new one, by the way. Oh, and I added it 'You will enjoy as much as you let yourself enjoy.'
I also found a new mode of displaying my Wii games and I'm about to do laundry. And I'm done with my last does of Azithromycin. Take that Bronchitis!
It just occurred to me that I tried to use 'also' twice in a row, which made me realise that these things are poorly written. I ought to work on that. I mean, Hippo's at The Wearable Arts Show with Johnny, so I haven't got anything better to do.
That leads me to think about how we need a world conference. Because Switzerland (me) is just trying to make peace while France, Czechoslovakia and Labia (Sarah, Ashley and Hippo) seem to be caught in a mess of miscommunication and stupidity. I actually really like this world metaphor we have going.
I like it almost as much as the quote that I wish more people would live by. "“I see now that the circumstances of ones birth are irrelevant; it is what you do with the gift of life that determines who you are.” Yeah. That's a Pokemon quote. Thank you, Mewtwo. I guess for me it feels like all that's changed is really some numbers. (13 to 14/15 Is it that big?) I think I should be loved for myself regardless. But people have different opinions and I suppose I'm stuck loosing two (Maybe three) or my best friends and favorite people.
"When you're loosing everything, remember what you've been given."
Today I saw: Not anything out of the ordinary. New sticky notes on my wall, I suppose.
Today I heard: Karen Kavett's voice, as I have discovered her lovely videos
Today I smelled: There is something cooking downstairs, however I have no idea what it is.
Today I touched: My room, a lot. Cleaning and getting things settled.
Today I tasted: Honey Nut Cheerios. In fact, I think that's all I've eaten today. Healthy.
The last one is the new one, by the way. Oh, and I added it 'You will enjoy as much as you let yourself enjoy.'
I also found a new mode of displaying my Wii games and I'm about to do laundry. And I'm done with my last does of Azithromycin. Take that Bronchitis!
It just occurred to me that I tried to use 'also' twice in a row, which made me realise that these things are poorly written. I ought to work on that. I mean, Hippo's at The Wearable Arts Show with Johnny, so I haven't got anything better to do.
That leads me to think about how we need a world conference. Because Switzerland (me) is just trying to make peace while France, Czechoslovakia and Labia (Sarah, Ashley and Hippo) seem to be caught in a mess of miscommunication and stupidity. I actually really like this world metaphor we have going.
I like it almost as much as the quote that I wish more people would live by. "“I see now that the circumstances of ones birth are irrelevant; it is what you do with the gift of life that determines who you are.” Yeah. That's a Pokemon quote. Thank you, Mewtwo. I guess for me it feels like all that's changed is really some numbers. (13 to 14/15 Is it that big?) I think I should be loved for myself regardless. But people have different opinions and I suppose I'm stuck loosing two (Maybe three) or my best friends and favorite people.
"When you're loosing everything, remember what you've been given."
Today I saw: Not anything out of the ordinary. New sticky notes on my wall, I suppose.
Today I heard: Karen Kavett's voice, as I have discovered her lovely videos
Today I smelled: There is something cooking downstairs, however I have no idea what it is.
Today I touched: My room, a lot. Cleaning and getting things settled.
Today I tasted: Honey Nut Cheerios. In fact, I think that's all I've eaten today. Healthy.
"I know about nothing!" Feburary 4, 2011
So, I slept today. And watched TV. Productive. I don't want to blog. I don't feel nice and I guess I'm just dropping out of Gunnar, Austin and Jackie's lives because that's the only way to make it better.
Today as a whole wasn't completely bad. I heard Powell and Brindalyn, as well as Hippo.
Today I saw: I
Today I heard: forgot
Today I smelled: my senses
Today I touched: too late now
Today I tasted: oops. sorry
Today as a whole wasn't completely bad. I heard Powell and Brindalyn, as well as Hippo.
Today I saw: I
Today I heard: forgot
Today I smelled: my senses
Today I touched: too late now
Today I tasted: oops. sorry
Thursday, February 3, 2011
"I want it ALL." Febuary 3, 2011
Yeah. I'm not the only one who loves Lush. I'm sucking Hippo in.
Today was boring, and kind of lonely. I miss Austin, Gunnar and Sarah and my other friends. I might be at school tomorrow, though. And that'd be good.
These sick days have given me a lot to think about, with missed work and missed friends. I doubt Jackie even knows I'm gone, or that Gunnar even knows I'm sick. I'm not too bugged, though. I'm not going to lie. Even if it sounds bad.
On that lovely note, I'm going to take a shower.
Today I saw: House. I watched House today. Riveting stuff.
Today I heard: Less coughing, lately. Good sign.
Today I smelled: My Lush soaps, as I sometimes sit and smell them like a freak.
Today I touched: My TV and Wii Motes. Don't judge me, I'm sick.
Today I tasted: Bread sticks. They weren't that good, though.
Today was boring, and kind of lonely. I miss Austin, Gunnar and Sarah and my other friends. I might be at school tomorrow, though. And that'd be good.
These sick days have given me a lot to think about, with missed work and missed friends. I doubt Jackie even knows I'm gone, or that Gunnar even knows I'm sick. I'm not too bugged, though. I'm not going to lie. Even if it sounds bad.
On that lovely note, I'm going to take a shower.
Today I saw: House. I watched House today. Riveting stuff.
Today I heard: Less coughing, lately. Good sign.
Today I smelled: My Lush soaps, as I sometimes sit and smell them like a freak.
Today I touched: My TV and Wii Motes. Don't judge me, I'm sick.
Today I tasted: Bread sticks. They weren't that good, though.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
"FLOUR!" Febuary 2, 2011
Inception quote today. Me quoting Ashley, who was quoting a dumb girl in her culinary class. I slept a lot of today, and played a lot of Animal Crossing with Hippo. And now I'm talking to Ashley while I feel empty because I have to make my own dinner. Just relaxing. I've found myself missing Gunnar, Austin the whole 'gang.' Even though Jackie doesn't know my name still. I tell her every time we met. She'll get it, I hope. I guess I should be getting used to this loneliness though. Even if Austin doesn't know what the hell he's going to do and Hippo leaving isn't definite. You know, part of me feels like I might as well have already lost Gunnar. I suppose that's the product of being sick all the time.
Today I saw: The inside of my eyelids. Sleeping is nice.
Today I heard: Animal Crossing music. My favorite!
Today I smelled: My house...? I mean, I was home all day. Nothing extraordinary.
Today I touched: My mom's laptop a lot. Well, more than usual since I was too lazy to bring mine downstairs.
Super bonus!
Here's a full clip of The Warblers from Glee singing Bills, Bills, Bills from next week's Glee.
Today I saw: The inside of my eyelids. Sleeping is nice.
Today I heard: Animal Crossing music. My favorite!
Today I smelled: My house...? I mean, I was home all day. Nothing extraordinary.
Today I touched: My mom's laptop a lot. Well, more than usual since I was too lazy to bring mine downstairs.
Super bonus!
Here's a full clip of The Warblers from Glee singing Bills, Bills, Bills from next week's Glee.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
"I think she has bronchitis." Febuary 1, 2011
Look at that, a month down.
And yeah, I do. bronchitis. Awesome. I'll be on antibiotics, but I'll be okay. It's still a pain in the ass. At least my mother actually believes I'm sick now.
I'm sleepy, sorry.
No. I will keep blogging. These post have been terrible, and I still wonder why I haven't gained followers. I have plenty of thoughts in my head and things to talk about. "A crappy execution of an idea is always better than an amazing concept trapped in your head forever ." I can't mope around forever and then use illness as an excuse to blog when I should be using this create more. I'm being silly by letting myself be okay with breaking goals to make my life a little easier. When I'm not blogging, I'm doing anything of importance. And even still I can't bring myself to do this.
Today I saw: The doctor's office, my favorite.
Today I heard: Scoby Doo, actually
Today I smelled: My dad
Today I touched: My Wii mote. A lot
Today I tasted: Cheese-its!
And yeah, I do. bronchitis. Awesome. I'll be on antibiotics, but I'll be okay. It's still a pain in the ass. At least my mother actually believes I'm sick now.
I'm sleepy, sorry.
No. I will keep blogging. These post have been terrible, and I still wonder why I haven't gained followers. I have plenty of thoughts in my head and things to talk about. "A crappy execution of an idea is always better than an amazing concept trapped in your head forever ." I can't mope around forever and then use illness as an excuse to blog when I should be using this create more. I'm being silly by letting myself be okay with breaking goals to make my life a little easier. When I'm not blogging, I'm doing anything of importance. And even still I can't bring myself to do this.
Today I saw: The doctor's office, my favorite.
Today I heard: Scoby Doo, actually
Today I smelled: My dad
Today I touched: My Wii mote. A lot
Today I tasted: Cheese-its!