"Stop being so anti-social"
I'm not sorry for not wanting to go out.
I'm not sorry that I haven't seen you in forever.
I'm not sorry that I'm being quiet.
No, I don't need to talk.
I'm just not built for this. I am not anti-social. I'm just not social by nature.
I spend a lot of time alone. I like being by myself. When I am alone and I can learn, think, breathe at any pace I want. I can react slowly or brashly. I can learn anything given enough time because I am that stubborn. I try on clothes, do quantum mechanics and read comic books.
Half of my personality is not a big picture person. I like the details. I hold onto things and think about them and wonder freely.
And half of me is laid back and carefree and easy-going. But that part of me is less-prominent and is, unfortunately, not really me.
I am details and analysis. I am depression prone, and I am easily upset. There are so very few people that I can be around for a long time.
I'm not sorry, and I'm not anti-social.
I'm just not made for this.
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