I maybe didn't learn this from my family, but after seeing Hippo spend time with her family, family is supposed to love and support you regardless. And this is going to be hard at first. But they will learn to. Talking about it as apposed to ignoring it will always be better. They will only understand if you help them.
If they don't, then you can raise a big middle finger to them, because they're not worth it.
There will always be someone out there who loves you like family, weather they're blood related or not.
Family is important. But friends make beautiful family.
The future looks lonely. The future, let's be frank, looks like crap.
But it's not. Even the darkest caverns can have one small light.
And the light, as cheesy as this stupid metaphor is, can mean so much.
You might be reading this thinking, 'It's just getting worse. Inside my head just keeps getting worse and worse'
You might be thinking that 'You don't understand. You're not me, and you don't even know me'
And you don't want to listen to a stranger.
Because I don't know, do I?
I don't know how you slice yourself open, looking for love, but finding more hate.
I don't know how it feels to be betrayed by the people I love.
To know what it's like to hate myself, and my life and to think that my head is crashing down upon itself, and I'm losing my mind.
I don't know what it's like to cut, but not cry.
I don't know what it's like to lie, and say 'I'm fine'
But I wasn't fine.
I don't talk about this a lot, because no one wants to hear about it.
I try to talk about happy and interesting things here, because I like to think that I'm leaving people in a good mood, or at least leaving them thinking about something worth their time.
No body wants to hear about my battle with box cutters, and razor blades.
And thinking that if they don't care now, they will will I'm gone.
But it got better. You know, I hate that phrase. But it's true. And I want you to know that someone out there loves you like nothing else, even if they can't say it.
Stand up for what you believe in.
Fight against homophobia.
The world is changing, and it's changing for you.
Don't tell me that you're thinking about missing that.
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Stay strong. I'm rooting for you!