I woke up in a sprawl of blankets, the sound of NintendoCapriSun's voice humming in the backround. Forgot to turn off the laptop. Damn. I always scolded myself for leaving my laptop constantly running, but I needed it to sleep. Falling asleep listening to a stranger discuss their issues or hobbies or life makes you forget all about yours. Putting somebody else's rambling on a playlist makes all of the one's in your head stop. At least momentarily.
I felt my hair to see if it was oily enough for me to be irritated with myself for not washing it the night before. Better than expected. I almost got up before it occurred to me.
I could stay home.
And after pleading with my mother I did. I went back upstairs and let my head fall.
Not today.
I've always considered sleeping one of my favorite hobbies. Like watching people like NintendoCapriSun or the Vlogbrothers, it's easy to let yourself go. Ignore your issues in favour of someone else. Sleeping reminds me of why even on the worst days, it's worth continuing. And this sleep gave me that, too.
Four to five hours, dreamless and serene. No noise but the rain on my window.
Even with the wind the water out in the marina was still, almost stagnant. Leaving me to drift peacefully.
Today I saw: Mostly myself, in the solitary that is staying home from school.
Today I heard: Anime voices, mostly. That's what one does on sick days.
Today I smelled: Well, I did almost burn the house down while making pasta...
Today I touched: My hair, my stomach, my head. I'm achy and fatigued- everything hurts.
Today I tasted: Pasta, pasta, pasta. That's all I feel like eating.
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