"Liz" September 20, 2011

I've had so many nice things said about me here.

You all are amazing.

But sometimes these nice things are overwhelming.

Who I am here, is not who I am in real life.

Here I am clear and articulate, I don't ramble, I'm confident and well-spoken.

But that's not true in real life.

Now, I choose not to display many of my flaws here, and it's unfair to you guys.

I am amazingly clumsy, and I ramble to much. I like to do the opposite of what I'm told just because. I can't drive because it makes me too anxious, and I failed Spanish my third year of taking it.

And that's not the worst of it.

I've done a lot of things I said I wouldn't, and hurt people who cared about me. I don't understand relationships,

and I am really self-destructive. I have a lot of scars.

I'm overly curious,

over-baring, and a huge over-achiever.

I'm too sensitive, and I can't heed my own advice. 

And I think. I think way too much, about too many things that don't matter, and I psyche myself out.

I'm not trying to be down on myself here, but I'm not perfect.

And you don't want to be me.

Today's rating: 6.8

Listening to: The background of Lord of the Rings: Two Towers

Currently reading:I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Anglou, and Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix by JK Rowling
Mostly Played iTunes Song: Tennessee- Theo Hilton, Toby Foster, and Ryan Woods
NaNoWriMo prewriting progress: Positive!