Yeah, today wasn't great. But I'm not going to talk about it. I'm not in the mood and I'm on my mom's laptop because my laptop is stupid and apparently wants to be thrown against a wall.
But I realised something. I need to leave. Just, go. I don't want to drop my friends or anything, just go on a little detour. I need room to do things, to make mistakes. I want to leave for two weeks and come back with stories. A whole new person. I know I've said I found myself in my friends, but sometimes I need a break. I'm tired of being told to wait, and I'm tired of feeling restricted. And like I can be utterly myself sometimes and none of myself the rest. There are things I need right now that I can't get here.
I'm frustrated and tired. Just because I'm the youngest doesn't mean I should have to put up with hell while I watch others feel happy. And I don't deserve to be treated with a lack of respect because of my age, especially.
Today I saw: My laptop die in front of my eyes, while Skyping with Hippo.
Today I heard: Me, hyperventilating in Algebra. Mostly over a teacher thing, but I'm sure there's more to it.
Today I smelled: Grilled sandwiches for dinner, again.
Today I touched: My mum's car, while waiting for he to get out of work.
Today I tasted: This juice, that is orange-berry. Iffy, iffy.
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